When I was little I was given a journal, it was lion king theme and to this day I still have it. Once and awhile I skim through it, re-read the highs and the lows (or what I thought was) of my life, remember all that I lived and learned. I used my diary as a place to vent, to be upset while trying to understand all that was happening in my life. And it was private. Very private. Inside the front cover reads “4 Jennifer’s eyes only! Turn back now please”
I can assume, some would wonder why I am now writing a blog. Sharing some of my feelings and experiences so openly with the world. I guess there are three main reasons.
I want others who may not articulate their own feelings and experiences to know that they aren’t alone.
I remember while in university thinking that I was the only one who was struggling; struggling to get the grades that reflected the work that I put into my studies. After finally getting the courage to ask others how they were doing, I found out that I wasn’t alone. I found that this applied to other aspects in life, like work and relationships. So this is why I write, to give voice and awareness of what other mommas may be going through but may be too embarrassed to speak about, and/or feel that they are alone. I’m not saying that all mommas struggle with the same issues but I know that I am not alone in my struggles.
I also share because it’s how I work through my own feelings.
After having Callum, I found that writing down how I was feeling was quite therapeutic as it was a way of working through my feelings. Many of my posts I have written a number of times as the first drafts are usually quite negative and sound like more of a rant. Through having to re-write my posts, I am remind how good life truly is and all the promises and gifts of God. It’s a great way to reposition my outlook on life.
I also want to share my faith and walk with God with others. When I upload a new post, I hope I am of some encouragement to other mommas out there and that I point them to God. I hope that I give Him the glory for my successes and my strength in this journey of motherhood.
So I hope you continue to walk with me on this journey. You’re doing great mommas!
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.