I got to meet Sheila when I was volunteering with the youth at the MET. The first thing I thought was wow this lady is crazy (or craaaazzzzy as Sheila would say). Crazy in a good way of course, but crazy. The amount of joy that resonates from her is indescribable. Her excitement and compassion as she lives her life loving and worshipping our God is contagious. God has given her the ability to be joyful when in my opinion she has so many reasons to be resentful and angry at Him. Now don’t get me wrong, she has her bad days but she chooses to be joyful regardless. She really has shown me that even when life may be very hard, God is good all the time!
I hope that Sheila’s prayer will encourage you as you face difficulties that God may allow in your life and hold fast to the incredible joy that God has waiting for you.
Thank you SHEEEEEIIIILLLLAAA for sharing your story!
I will bow down toward Your Holy Temple and will praise Your Name for Your unfailing love and Your faithfulness, for You have so exalted Your solemn decree that it surpasses Your fame.
Wow does not David state it so well on how wonderful and how huge our God is!! I have written and rewritten, over the thoughts of what to share about my journey, my life so far.
When I look over my fifty years of life I am so humbled, thankful and blown away with how God has more than sustained me and provided for me and loved me. WOW and Praise His Holy Name. Thank you Lord for Being You and for being our/my Everything, even when we do not know.
I hope you do not mind but I am going to try to tell my story via a prayer and also use Psalm 81 as an offshoot.
Here we go…….
1. Sing for joy to God our strength; shout aloud to the God of Jacob! 2. Begin the music, strike the timbre, play the melodious harp and lyre.
For me I love to give my whole being to worship my Heavenly Father, My Provider, My Comforter, My Protector with all that I have to give especially in my singing (even if it’s off key) and my un-bashful dancing!!!! He is a Good and Mighty God All of the Time through every single second He is I AM!! YESSSSSS HE IS!
10a. I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of Egypt.
God called me to Him when I was quite young, I praise Him for that. I still remember the man that took me and my sister to church after my dad died and the Sunday school bus after him.
God carried me throughout of an unloving, destructive, scary, hurtful childhood.
God rescued me from an abusive, degrading, controlling, unhealthy relationship with a man that thought it was ok to use me and have me sell myself on the streets so he could use that money for his own longings, for his drug fix and alcohol use.
10b. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.
Yes Father I am opening my mouth and my whole being wide because I want You, Lord God to keep filling me up with all Your Love, Goodness, Favour and all You have to offer.
11.“But my people would not listen to me; Israel would not submit to me.
Father please always help me to hear and listen to You, I want to submit to You and to You alone Lord. I want to always follow Your Ways, I know I have failed to do so many times but please continue to guide and direct me.
13.“If my people would only listen to me, if Israel would only follow my ways,
14.how quickly I would subdue their enemies and turn my hand against their foes!
Father I seek Your quick hand now to deal with my enemies especially at my current workplace. Lord, help them to know Your ways and Your Love and work in their hearts, minds and attitudes. Thank you Lord Jesus.
16. But you would be fed with the finest of wheat; with honey from the rock I would satisfy you.”
Well Father I have so much to be thankful for and I am grateful I can say thank you. First and foremost I have YOU in my life and I am Your Daughter. Yesssssssssss How wonderful is that. Second, You honored me by allowing me to raise Your son, my boy is not the son of the man that used me and treated me unlovingly. Thank you for helping me provide financially, physically, emotionally, spiritually in raising a God-Fearing, Caring, Compassionate, Go-Getter, Strong, Independent, Loving, respectful, giving young married man. Father when I look back on my life and where I am now, I am awe-struck.
I came from a very destructive, unhealthy and abusive, never knowing if we had a place to live or food to eat life to providing a loving, caring, and supportive home for my son. You gave me the strength to obtain my high school education in my twentys and show our son that it is important to keep You close and to trust in You always for everything.
Lord, thank you for making away for us to obtain a bank loan and giving me several jobs to send our son to school in the States where You provided the ohhh so much needed support of Christian men in our son’s life. Thank you for allowing me to follow Your’s and our son’s leading with the schools in the US, where we knew no one. Thank you for giving our son the will, the guts, the strength and determination to carry out a dream You placed in his heart. Oh but before that thank you that You gave him a desire to want to play football in the NFL which brought him to finish not only high school he now has his bachelors degree in accounting and his masters in education. Whooohooooo Can I get an Amen, Alleluiaaaaaaa. God You are so Good All the Time.
Our son went for his dream and did not let the naysayers stop him or tear him down. He continued to follow the dream You placed in his heart and he continued to follow Your lead and look at him now Lord God. He is where You want him to be teaching and helping other young fatherless men in high school to become men of God and to follow their own dreams. WOW. Oh I must not forget how You, Lord God made it possible for me to stop living in tiny and loud places while our son was obtaining his higher education, You gave me a very spacious, comfortable , peaceful home of my own.
Hmmmmmmmmm So wonderful Thank you Thank you. Father I am also so grateful that You have helped me know that I was trafficked and for guiding me and leading me to groups where I can be of service and to help others that are in or have been in a horrific life. Thank you for allowing me to be a big sister to the ladies. Thank you for helping me be a prayer warrior to help make others aware and to be a part of the solution to stop this injustice. Thank you for Free-Them, Fight 4 Freedom, Joy Smith Foundation, Let Freedom Ring, Justice Summit and other groups that are educating us all and helping change the mindset of people, police, government, courts and seeing the ladies that are caught in this life are worthy and valuable and have so much to offer.